Letting go is difficult. We can sit and work to consciously let go of our hurt and our pain. However, when it comes down to it sometimes it still creeps back in. I work to Let go of the pain that the people who are supposed to love me have caused. I have chosen to not to allow them to be a part of my life because of their actions but at the same time I do not want to become bitter.
Bitter is an ugly place. Sometimes, well sometimes I think I am in a good place. I feel like I have let go and I feel like I am working to move forward. However, other days the pain and the hurt creep back in, the resentment sits and pokes me and tells me I am justified to be angry.
I do not deny that my anger is justified, but it is not something that I want to hold onto. Holding onto anger will eventually lead to a blowup of epic proportions. Over my life I have gotten quite good at shoving away feelings, however, that is not what I want to do either, because eventually they resurface.
So the question becomes, what do I do with these thoughts and feelings that keep trying to edge their way back into my life? I’m still trying to figure out the answer to that question and a way to let go so I can be free…
Gamer Girl 