Does anyone else feel like they are constantly trying to put a puzzle together? That is often what life feels like to me. One big puzzle that I am trying to figure out one day at a time.. I think that this is a huge part of the reason that I love strategy games so much. With strategy games I can predict the outcomes based off my actions and the actions of other players.
Most of the time I am pretty close to accurate on my predictions too. Games are predictable. Well at least more predictable then life. We know if we perform action a, b, c that the outcome will be x, y, z. While along the way there may be some twists and turns they are relatively easy to navigate if we are able to rely on our fundamental strategy.
Life is a lot different. There are some things in life that we can strategize. Like, we know, that if we pay our Phone bill we will have phone service. However, we cannot predict some of the unexpected, like if we drop said phone in a toilet or a storm takes down phone service, we can prepare for it to the best of our ability, but life often throws twists and turns at us that we are not expecting.
I am not sure about the rest of you but that often leaves me scrambling and trying to figure out how all the rest of the puzzle pieces should fit. I want to be able to predict the outcome and prepare and when I cannot my anxiety takes over. I overthink and think of all the worst case scenarios. Eventually, I had to start learning to leap even when I was scared out of my mind.
However, this leap often is just as dangerous. I force my mind to stop overthinking which means I stop over preparing. So I leap and then I am out in the middle of nowhere going, well… that did not go as planned. There has to be a healthy in between, however, I have yet to find it.
I do not talk about faith or beliefs here often but today I am going to do so. I do not have a pretty way to wrap up my thoughts but I was sitting listening to a sermon the other day and the pastor said something that stuck with me. Something that I want share with all of you. He talked about the fact that Faith is not having all the pieces to the puzzle or the full picture but still doing what we are called to do.
We can sit and ask questions and think until we are blue in the face but eventually we need to take a step of faith and move forward. One of my favorite quotes illustrates this perfectly.
I am going to choose to live life in a way that will lead to adventure and will lead to flight. I know I am going to fall down and scrape my knees on occasion. However, I choose to have Faith that the full picture will be worth putting the puzzle together, one piece at a time.
Gamer Girl 